the traffic was bad this morning. 45mins drive. insane. should've just took the route from Stevens exit. well well well...

had japanese for dinner last night. not particularly crave but just have to put something into my mouth.

angry cant be the word, disgusted that is. totally sick of seeing them. like totally you know. words are beyond explanation on whys and hows. to a extend that, i dont bother to speak or even wanna look them in the eye. somewhere along the line, something went wrong. i dont give a fuck to what it's. i heard noise each time they open their mouth and worse, its directing to me yet thoughts went through my mind, like, why exist? and why are they trying so hard to even fake a smile? they feel superior this way? i think its fuckin' stupid. they cant even act their bloody age and yet send critics down.

know what's the annoying part? they dont project the thing they want straight to my face which is a damn thing i detest. i could do like the same old thing again and again. damn those pricks. i shant say they're dumb cos of the qualifications they achieve but purely fools. yes, indeed i grew in such environment and society for as long as i remembered but at the end of the day i reflect upon it, i felt that they've absolute no happiness in their 9hrs or so. i often toy with the thought, do they or not, get enough love? that's what people do when they dont get the attention desperately. but again, my motto has never failed me. superficial is a form of survival.

disturbed by the fact that if age is catching up with one, my advice is, dont try too hard. i'm not boo-ing at the number which would gradually occur on me because i know just for that day to arrive, of course, i would say, dress your age. stick my nose up to see mid-30s here still browsing through forever 21 blablabla. you saw the store name, 21 and not 31. nothing last forever! not that i'm paranoid over such tiny things but just felt that its worth considering and picking up. i summarize what i've seen daily and became a conversation with friends, they too, agreed. oh.. and i think i knew why these old and cranky people are acting this way. for one, in their younger days, they dont get the chance to experience with colours and beauty so as age is racing against time, one tends to go back and replenish what they've lost. i've learn to appreciate the finner things in life. like beauty at the age of 40. looked at models of Elizabeth Arden and Bobbie Brown, looked how amazing these women. besides, people i met daily, dont seem to learn and least, take advice. prolly blinded by what their own sense of fag(hag)eewl.. and high and mightiness. nightmares!

enough of their physical+inner-self fugly-ness;

wanna catch a dance performance by Stuttgart Ballet. guess its rather breathtaking as it's from story of "Romeo and Juliet". consist of more than 100 dancers and world famous choreographers. (: 10% off for mercedez benz and citibank card owners

finally... lovely weekend.